why is it dat humans set high hopes and haf intricately detailed dreams onli to wallow in self pity wen those expectations are not met?

i've always wondered y one can nvr be satisfied n contented wif wat dey haf.. yeah.. i means its gd to haf goals n haf ambitions.. but it is also gd to noe wen be tankful n grateful for wat we haf n achieved..

isn't it being selfish if we keep asking for more.. everytime we get sth.. in dat case.. den no one will become cleaners n road sweepers coz dey all wanna be doctors n businessmen all de oder stuffs..

DREAM.. yeah.. dats wat i always believe.. dun stop believing in urself n wat can happen if u wurk hard.. but stay realistic.. coz dats de onli way u can be contented n successful..
dats my opinion anyway.. i wuz tinking bout diz 'frore i went to bed.. staring up at de wooden board where i pasted sum pics.. above me.. i juz tot of tis ting..

i mean.. obviously.. i'm of a diff breed.. yah.. i'm human n all.. but wat kind of person totally changes her personality.. juz lyk dat.. wif no apparent reason..
wen i wuz younger.. i wuz a perfectionist.. n desperate for attention [i wuz de middle kid.. smarter siblings] threw tantrums n sulk ALOT.. yeah.. i wuz de kid no one ever dreams of having.. i wuz a nightmare..

den i juz changed.. i mean.. i still haf sum qualities i had laz time.. juz not obviously portrayed.. i became very lazy.. din care abt anyting [BIG change frm a perfectionist huh?] lyk criusly anyting.. ignored lotsa ting.. stopped dreaming..

yah.. i noe.. dat sounds lyk a typical teenager.. but.. i dunno.. i dunno how to explain how i've changed.. i mean i still want attention.. yeah.. AA.. but.. i've shut up-ed.. i use to talk alot.. ALOT.. made lotsa noise.. centre of attention n all dat..

now.. i juz keep quiet.. i did alot more observing den talking.. i means.. sths i still haf outbursts.. but not as much as laz time.. but sumhow.. i've become more kiddish on de inside.. lyk i want wat i missed out on back wen i wuz younger..

i dunno.. i dun run away frm home.. talk to frens instead of my parents.. became a "problem" teenager.. coz i aredi did all dat wen i wuz younger.. like i 'grew up' redi.. but i feel more childish on de inside..

yar.. i noe.. i'm not reli making sense.. life is complicated.. wen u make it to be.. huh?
juz wanna end by saying dat.. we shud always continue having dreams.. but also feel contented wif wat we haf.. no pt brooding over past mistakes or de shud-haf-beensn dun set too high an expectation.. coz it de joy u feel wen u've achieved sth beats de hurt feeling wen u've failed..

BE CONTENTED MY FRENS..