i dun wanna be anyting oder den wat i've been trying to be lately

oh kay.. i'm officially someone hu dusen update regularly anymore.. hopefully afta tmr.. all will be back to norm..

its been a frustrating month.. i'd rather forget April 05.. except for de times i spent wif my frens.. i luv dem.. oh yar.. i'm supposed to mention SYARIFAH HAFIZAH haha.. she says she din see her name in my blog.. ish.. here u go.. i juz wrote it.. haha..

so lets recap.. i noe i haven finish my laz entry.. ngok mood firz k? haha..

-tue-
skool.. wuz a damn slack day coz mrs koh din come.. so had no tutorial n extra period.. hmm.. den had a loooong break 'fore dk.. so i did abit of wurk.. proud of myself man.. finally.. i manage to do wurk.. den we had dk.. mr azhar, mdm mas n cikgu hani watched us.. mr azhar gave comments.. ok.. tanks.. at least dey were constructive.. but it wud haf helped if..

NVM.. FORGET IT.. i'm too tired to tink abt diz anymore.. i'm not wasting my last ounce of energy on... shit.. i'm doing it again..


-wed-
anuder frustrating day.. had no canoeing/dragonboat *SOBS* den had dk again.. shall i juz say.. dere all ppl out dere hu's purpose in lyf is to screw up mine n my frens lives.. n dey care no consequences to their actions.. which is one day gonna come back to haunt dem.. i'll make sure of dat.. no one.. n i repeat.. NO ONE.. gets away frm me afta dey do dat..

dere wuz *__________________________________________* 'fore, wen i wuz dere n afta i left.. i got a fone call.. dat explained alot wen i wuz eating.. grt *rolls eyes*

-thurs- [nice date.. 05/05/05]
damn long day.. took econs test.. oh shit.. i'm sooo gonna fail.. left fot de "Seminar for de Arts" by mr Benson Phua, CEO of esplanade.. i enjoyed it.. greatly.. tank gawd i chose to go for it.. lets juz say.. it widen n opened up my tinking.. of certain tings in lyf.. n i kinda relate.. i enjoyed it.. tanks mr Benson.. luved it..

den had dk again.. i wuz in a gd mood.. me n faiz.. den

i noe, u noe, we noe..

yup.. dat is as much as i'll go.. my mood meter wen frm: HIGH to f***** up within A fraction of a second..

-fri-
dat is today.. i lyk.. coz slack day.. i enjoyed.. found out i failed maths.. hmm.. i hate disappointing t'chers hu are nice.. but i can't seem to change.. i seldom become nice to dem.. until a pt in time where i juz realise i hafta stop being a loooooser n start doing sth.. rite now i enjoy slacking.. yes.. so i'm sorie..

no dk.. we had a security seminar at SSS.. memories of firz 3 mths juz came flowing back.. hmm.. i lyked it den.. it wuz great.. it wuz raining wif thunders n all.. so we waited in foyer awhile.. a looooong while.. haha.. den walk to SSS.. had fun wif faiz n shammm at de back.. haha..

den wen to WRL.. to look for adil's bk.. found it. borrowed wif siti's card. followed her n filziee to buy hairnet. so wuzen my kinda shop. so i blended wif de teletubbies outside. den i wen home. had a nice slp on de bus. lucky i din miz my stop. i miz my stop on thurs. took 38. waited for adil at de bus stop outside melville. adik came n teman me. adil came. we wen in. i looked for de burok a maths bk. cuden find it. walked adil to de bus stop. waited for him to board de bus. walk home. ate dinner. my fav. watched tv. throat hurts. here i am. n de 9pm cite cine is crap. i so dun understand now. plot juz changed. dun make sense no more. k i'm tired. i mite update de prev entry. haf fun watching me make a fool of myself tmr. 1 reason not to____. i damn reason. so close to it. hmphf.

gd nite all..





*I don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ‘round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to beI don’t want to be anything other than me*