all in the head

hmm.. i'm in the comp lab..
cikgu not here.. neither is mdm mas..
i swear i have no idea why i came so early..
shamm wuz right.. should have just came to school at 11
then i wouldn't have to wait so long..
summore this place is so freeeaaking cold lar.. can?

i finish 1 econs summary.. a pathetic ONE.. haha
lazy ah to do some more.. maybe later ah.. during lunch or sth..

yesterday is one day i NEVER want to remember.. at least not the first half of the day..
at around 4.. i joined the canoeing ppl for gym "training".. haha..
[notice how the word is in brackets..] i did like 3 mins of weights.. then went out to buy air batu for 4 of us.. then sat around the stage and crap.. all the way until 6+.. haha.. slack rite? i felt a little guilty ah.. but then decided i'll go gym on friday.. before the play..

slacking was fun.. we talked about everything under the sun.. even
I didn't know there were stars on my shoe..
haha.. that was really funny..

was upset when i went home.. so i watched charmed.. which was good.. cause it was funny.. and Kyle and Paige looked good.. haha.. really.. then.. did things to calm myself..

i don't know why.. but lately i've been feeling reli weird.. my mood fluctuates.. to the extremes.. its like being back in the old days.. a time i was not proud of.. Nevermind.. this time i'm convinced i'll get over this faster than i did the last time.. however.. i wonder i'm gonna take it after the 20th Aug.. by then, i have a plan.. one that i'm confident will be smoothly caried out.. *grins*

mom wants to go for the teacher-parent meeting.. wokay.. whatever.. i so don't care.. nothing she hears will be anything new.. so what the hell is the big deal.. if she want to go.. go lah.. then can talk to tutors.. just as she likes it..



There are alot of conflict in life.. within, between and beyond ourselves.. nothing we do will make this world free of such nonsense.. its just what we do to control ourselves and not take part in such childish acts.. This world is perfect.. but only to our limitations.. Humans are made like this.. but this is exactly what we have to do in order to teach ourselves lessons that you can never learn in school.. No matter what happens.. believe in yourself to make happen sth that is deep within your heart.. Our achievements are restricted only by our OWN limitations.. its all in the head.. Believe in it if you want it..

just the way i like it