prelims 1 over

so prelims 1 are over.
i'm hoping that i'll do better this time since i put in SLIGHTLY more effort in.
but thinking again. i should just leave the hoping to kids and focus more on reality.


so i've noticed a whole lot more people who emo, or worse depressed.
man, i sure hope i don't contribute to that.
i promise to try my best to be on my best behaviour and not cause any pain or hurt to people, no matter how little the matter is.
it's going to be a challenge of course, but i'm gonna try.
its time i stop looking after my own interest and look to others.
if its something i've learnt lately, its that the more i give, the more i receive.
i don't mean that in a boastful way.
its just that i'm trying to be more gracious and grateful.
and if i do step out of the line, please don't hesitate to point it.
i won't hate you for it, promise.


now, the world cup has been going on for 21 days and i don't think i've had my say.
i'm rooting for England, surprise surprise.
that doesn't mean i'm not disappointed by the way they're playing.
a girl's got a right to support who she wants and i'll keep my comments, for now.


we've to do a PCCG presentation for both j1s and j2s sometime in july on the UK trip.
pity i don't get to present to j2s.
ironically, i'm rather relieved. i'm not very comfortable standing on stage.
but i guess the fact that i get to share one of my favourite moments of my life will help to take away some of that novelty.


i've been bingeing again. not a good thing of course.
its just that i've been feeling troubled and its hard to move on.
blame it on my blatant weakness.
i'd like to have someone help me take away all these sorrow but i realise that i have to do it myself if i really want to get over it and not hide behind something called distraction.


i hope i get to kick some balls tonight. if not, tomorrow then.
common, not that kind.