mixed emotions

today was very confusing.
got off to a good start.
smiles all the way.
managed to get some work done, although i'm way behind schedule here.
it doesnt help that there are good shows on tomorrow.
meaning that i'll probably have to sacrifice my sleep tonight.


later, went down to play soccer.
i guess i have to say i'm spoilt.
i rather picky who i play with.
i just don't like it when i play with people who arent comfortable playing with a girl around.
i know i'm not fantastic but i know i can play solid football if i choose to.
so i just piss them off by playing as badly as my form allows me too.
i tried that just now. a bit cannot make it.
i still manage to score a cool goal.
[haha.. sorry, can't help myself here. allow me a little indulgence please.]
i think that's why i like it when ariffin or ashraf plays.
i still get teased, but somehow i'm motivated to play.


[sidenote: ok you girls out there who find Cristiano Ronaldo hot, i got a good alternative for you. especially if you're into malay guys. don't ask. anyway, this guy i played with just now, he so totally looks like ronaldo. almost like a carbon copy. with the same curly hair and small eyes. except that he's not that tall. just as cocky too. so, a very good substitute don't you think? think econs here people. haha. sorry. that was random.]


the 3rd/4th place match is tonight.
i lost interest after my team got out.
and somehow, the fake interest in football ticks me.
i know i should be thankful that more people watch soccer
but it just goes to show how many shallow people there are.
right now, even people who watch for the 'beautiful' guys instead of for the beautiful game, don't bug me as much.
common, don't come up to me bragging about the goals and misses you saw on tv last night.
doesn't impress me one bit.
i can't wait for summer to be over and the football season resumes.
i know this is rather late since the world cup is ending
but i can't wait to say,


GOOD RIDDANCE ONCE-EVERY-FOUR-YEARS FEVER!



what ever it is. i'm a happy person today. confused but happy.
so lesson learnt today, if you want a good day, start it off well.
at least then diminishing marginal return sets in, instead of just getting stuck in the pit
as shown in the figure 1.1. =)


go knock you socks off.