running and never stopping

"the severity of the problem lies in man’s behaviour as a result of his own opinions--
he is likely to dismiss the thoughts after sometime or will he keep dwelling on the same issues till he unconsciously changes his character"



that was extracted from the many gp essays i hae lodged within this tablet of mine.
so, who says you can learn from doing notes?
it only means you're not putting your heart into it.



i took that out for a reason.
it can perhaps explain the inner workings of feelings dwelling somewhere deep in me.




i'm so tired.
emotional pain hurts way more than physical pain does.
trust me.
i have my hand in plaster.
i think the reason why i was so very badly affected by the pain was due to the stress i've been feeling lately.
i'm not happy at the way i broke down.
but in the end, it just means that i'm releasing some of that hurt.
felt slightly better emotinally.
but that physical pain still resides.
dammit.



the pain escalates in cooler conditions, meaning in air-con.
and since i have an air-conditioned classroom and lts, it means that i'm deep in pain the entire time i'm in school.
me, being use to physical pain, am rather able to handle it.
but just now, it was simply too much to bear.
i had to leave.
i'm contemplating not coming tomorrow.







i feel like running away. and never stopping to look back.
and considering i'm not into running, i think we have a serious problem here.