why do i even bother trying

please excuse me.
i'm going to rant again.
so if it bothers you,
click that green button up there on the left.





i'm sick. and i'm tired.
i'm very sick and tired of people telling me that i'm the one not communicating.
fuck lah.
it's not like as if i'm not bothering.
i think the number of times i've tried have tripled the number of times Edison took to invent that bloody lightbulb.
i don't even know what is keeping me going everytime i try.
probably because of the fact that they are my parents.
i'm airing laundry here.
but, contrary to popular belief, i don't have perfect parents.
it's truly far from that,
that is unless you're my sister.



jeolousy you say?
i doubt so.
everytime i tell my troubles
i only get
(a) ignored
(b) a blank look
(c) a scolding, yes, not a nag
(d) an i-have-better-things-to-do-right-now look
(e) all of the above



now, ain't that fun.
and i'm not being sensitive.
people's behaviour,
that is something i truly understand
although i usually don't use that to my advantage.
so, please don't tell me i'm being oversensitive
or that i'm not trying.






I AM.







that totally spoilt my mood for the day.
thanks alot.