think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure

"think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure"



that's one way of looking at things.
a reminder for me.
the past has been painful.
yes. 'has'
i'm learning to let go.
i guess that's just one of the many defects of my character.


i just can't bear to forget.
i fear that if i do,
i'll just repeat the same mistakes.
and that is something i cannot risk.
i'd rather remain unhappy
than go through all that pain all over again.



don't worry yourself.
i'm fine.
this is just my way of dealing with my issues.
i have to let it out somehow,
don't i?



i have renewed my obsession.
always not a good thing.
and its not necessarily what you think it is.
yas, i need you.
you were always there through my other obsessions.
and probably not share it all
but you being there was enough for me.
i miss you babe.



i'm so hollow...